Stalking Mike Bilinski, 201 #StarSkream

So this happened. This snip clicks back to the post where this comment was made.

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MY BAD!

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StarSkream.com goes to their facebook page, which I duly liked and am now sharing with you guys so you can go like it too.  photo pink-heart-teensy.png Mike Bilinski is listed as General Manager on their About page. Their facebook is also app linked to their youtube page so you can listen to them right there. You can also buy Star Skream downloads on Amazon.

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No exchange or compensation was made for all this linking. I really am a Mike Bilinski fan.  photo music.gif

year end youtube assessment

I didn’t think to include my youtube year end assessment in my assessment post the other day. My channel got 1,333 views this year, which is cool considering I’m not trying, and here is the top 10 breakdown.

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Lifetime views is 81,243 from 167 countries. I get to see neat maps and charts. Here is the breakdown for views from the top 20 countries.

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I can hover over the map and see little popups.

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The following video is my top vid. It’s been seen in 157 countries and total lifetime views is currently at 68,495. There is a Story behind this video that I hope to get written out one day. I have given permission for this video to be posted on suicide prevention pages and turned comments off because I was getting so many overwhelming personal stories from families who had lost members to suicide. This young lady is still with us against odds you wouldn’t believe, being plowed by a car while she was in a crosswalk two Christmases ago and thrown so hard that she nearly lost a leg and suffered head injuries. I withdrew the video from public during that time, so ‘lifetime’ actually covers only about five years instead of seven.

This is my second top vid. Most of my pet chicken videos barely get hits at all, so 3,320 views on it cracks me up. I guess it’s a big thing to watch big pet snakes eat small mammals and birds and I accidentally lucked into the search range with the title I chose.

The third top is Maizy again with 1,218 lifetime views on this one.

And the 4th top has me in it, lol. I never expected anyone to watch it, it’s kinda dumb.

I originally had no plans when I created my youtube account, but over this next year a few things might be changing, and I hope to be doing vid chat hangouts with other Lexx fans on Google+. I guess we’ll see where it goes.

Herx

I’m having a hard time staying public. I made a PLAN, and if I don’t stick to it I may as well give up, walk away, disappear again. Ain’t gonna happen. All the same, s’tough.

Need to briefly whine-

 All those years I waited as patiently as I could for relief from extended family-in-law pressures has ridiculously escalated in the form of angsty burrito mama going through another reflexive panic/action/reorganizeandrestructure spasm. I’m actually happy about this latest decision, quite so, but dang, these sudden uprootings and reploppings with our lives every 3 months has got to slow down a little bit. Everything I ever put my own mother through pales to insignificance and I’m out of context to fall back on.

 Herxing. I’m not even gonna link that. What friends I have that understand this know I’m best left alone when I’m on antibiotic because I reach my evil villain heights while I herx through simply taming a sinus infection. Depression lies, and nothing kicks it up like a good old fashioned herx.

 Another Christmas not seeing the people I *really* want to see.

 Ricocheting around social media and setting off misunderstandings because I’m extra aspie when I’m like this, and I’ve come really close to arguing with several people I really like over stupid things that don’t matter. Since I have so much experience with consequences, I know it’s best right now to just put my head through a wall, because I have vowed not to burn any more bridges.

Ok, this just showed up in my twitter interactions. This guy GETS me. #popfail I’m not a bad person, but YES I AM, SMASH IT!!!!

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I feel better now.

These vids are getting me through my week. I don’t know why they work, I think it’s the way the sound patterns melt my brain in a weird aspie neural stim, but in case you find them helpful too, here you go.

And if you truly need MORE because your day sucks that badly, I keep this one in reserve. From one of my private blogs, originally dated 11-12-10

I am so thankful for people who create this crap to amuse me when I’m sick.

Star Trek Recap #6 – Perry’s Planet  (or, die laughing while you die from illness)

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But wait!  There’s more!

Star Trek Re-Cap #5 – Spock, Messiah!

Star Trek Re-Cap #7 – Killing Time

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Love you guys. Hope you’re doing ok. I know I’m going to be all right.

the making of Lexx

Emergency ‘just in case’ salvage while Xanga continues installing new composition editing tools that seem to be obliterating my old vid posts.  This is a copy of a post on my Lexx fan blog dated 3-24-13 that got 8,840 views before Xanga brutally uprooted and moved to new servers at the beginning of September 2013.

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It’s fun to see what goes into how a show is made. This is a collection of youtubes loaded by fans. If you love this kind of stuff and are interested in Lexx once again becoming a viable product, check out The Lexx Revival Project.

Movie Television – “The Making of Lexx” – part 1
Movie Television – “The Making of Lexx” – part 2
Lexx-Extra Stuff(part1)
Lexx-Extra Stuff(part2)
Lexx-More Extra Stuff(part1)
Lexx-More Extra Stuff(part2)
Lexx-Even More Extra Stuff(part1)
Lexx-Even More Extra Stuff(part2)
making of Lexx season 3 part 1 of 2
making of Lexx season 3 part 2 of 2
Lexx season 4 wrap reel (Part 1/2)
Lexx season 4 wrap reel (Part 2/2)

Learn more about Lexx here. Get back to my Lexx fan blog –> GrandFortuna.

Little Lexx

I joined the Little Lexx (http://littlelexx.net/) forum on November 9th of 2005. To this day, never before or since were there as many users online at the same time in that forum as June 4, 2007, thanks to my presence, and thanks to a handful of other users making me almost as famous as the Lexx actors for awhile. The train wreck was magnificent.

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Years later I have the opportunity to help keep this forum ‘alive’, as it were. Other true fans have been paying out of pocket for years to keep up the domain registration and web hosting, and even rescued the forum from something awhile back that nearly took out the history. I’m not sure what happened and what went into the salvage, but I was grateful to find the forum hadn’t disappeared. It looks a little scantier than it originally did, but thankfully a lot of the archives are still there.

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As of right now, Little Lexx doesn’t expire again now until 2016. I don’t own the Little Lexx domain. I’m not an admin, and I’m not in charge of anything. I am only a contributor. I’m not interested in using the ‘bored’ to promote myself, and I’m not there to be a superfan. There are plenty more Lexx fans who know a great deal more than I do and have spent a lot more money and time on souvenir acquisitions, attending conventions, and building fan sites. I generally don’t team up with other fans any more to get things done or make things happen, and I suck at stalking the actors. I’ve also been out of touch with other fans for several years. But when 2016 rolls around, I’ll be first in line again to keep that forum paid for.

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I just don’t want this forum to disappear. A little over a year ago I gave some deep thought to making a solid commitment to a few things, and Lexx is one of them. Even though I gave away most of my own collection and deleted my original fan sites, which were somewhat prolific, Lexx was part of something very important that was happening in my private life, and I accept now that Lexx is part of me and how I survived some really hard stuff, as bizarre as that sounds to some people.

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Going forward, Lexx is part of who Janika Banks is. There is much much more to me, and I’m already coming back more prolifically than before with some pretty big projects underway, but Lexx is part of what started it all and will remain part of who I am.

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I’m not a nostalgic sort because I’m aspie, not really into contacting people. Most of my previous internet relationships during Lexx years ago came from other fans contacting ~me~. I love fans and I love fandoms, but I’m not going to jump back in there and run any message boards. One of the great mantras “Lexx is dead” (I hear that so often) problematically came about of continual unnecessary board wars, in my opinion, which can be traced historically across several forums, and seems to be a problem more in the United States than anywhere else. I’ve been contacted by fans around the world, literally, asking me (why me???) why this was happening and why I didn’t just go fix it. My answer is 1- it’s not my job, 2- I’m not out to compete with or be better than anyone, 3- why don’t the people asking me do it themselves, and 4- I honestly can’t believe so many people around the entire globe are that afraid of 3 people. I’ve never seen anything like it.

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While other actors are finding ways to flourish in social media, some of the Lexx actors have disappeared for years and not been very present for the fans. Some are just now finding their feet on facebook and twitter. Fans still have an awful time finding them because meta searching is so dismal. To date, the best way to find Lexx actors is still through loyal fans and their websites, and even those are sadly neglected. You can click on this pic to get to that site.

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Social media is the future. Want more Lexx? I’m working on making sure you can find more in the search engines. THAT is what *I* do. I’m the only fan in the United States on twitter that I can find actively linking Lexx on a regular basis, besides a random fan here or there tweeting from getglue or whining about netflix. Other long ‘dead’ scifi fandoms have huge representation on twitter. While other fans still link long abandoned Lexx fan sites, I work on creating all new stuff. I don’t just sit around talking on a message board about Lexx. I actively seek out fans on tumblr who think no other Lexx fans exist, I blog about Lexx, I still get new screen shots no one has ever gotten before. Click this pic to follow me on twitter.

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Commitment. I know I failed the fans when I dumped all my stuff and walked away. I know I suck for that. But unless I really die this time, it’s not going to happen again, and I just put my money where my mouth is on the Little Lexx forum. Lexx is NOT dead. Lexx is finally merchandising through places like Target, which I used to only dream of. Brand new Lexx is cheaper now than used Lexx in gamer stores, and I know because I bought up all the used Lexx in my region. I had gamer store clerks clearing Lexx merch out of other stores in another state and mailing it to my house so I could give it away as prizes one day. I’ve already given away a complete used Lexx and a complete new Lexx to people who actively attend Lexx watches, even though that was never part of my intention with social media. Still, I did make this offer…

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A few fans have done Lexx reviews on youtube and still cosplay Lexx at conventions. I’m not a journalist, and although I enjoy digging this stuff up, I don’t consider it my job to link everyone I find. I’m not into salvage like I used to be when I was first horrified that Lexx was disappearing off the internet. My agenda with Lexx is being true to the story and the characters, first and foremost. I’m working on a couple of Lexx projects relating to that. My stuff will come into existence with or without forums and fan sites, but if other fans would like more interaction and more traffic to their own stuff, Little Lexx is still around, and several of us still check it to see if anything new is happening. We would love to see your pictures and youtubes and whatever else you’ve got going as a Lexx fan.

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